it's been awhile

sorry for my absence. i say that like so many people are reading this. i have been pretty busy. school is out. i've got four kids home with me. good times.

my dad came and watched my kids for me while i went to school. it took me two weeks. i know that's not a very long time but i didn't get a degree and i need to get to work as soon as i can. are you wondering what i have gone to school for? real estate. yes, i am aware that the market is not good, but i was presented with an opportunity and i took it. last week i took my state exam, and guess what? i passed. go me. yesterday i signed my contract to work for an agency and i should begin working within the next few weeks. ill try to be a better blogger.

ps i bought a cupcake cookbook. i can't wait to try out one of the recipes.

whole foods

i could wander through the store aimlessly all day. their fruits and veggies remind me of fine art with their vibrant colors and oh the beautiful flowers. the word organic actually excites me. i have issues, i know. and they have these cookies. they are called jumble cookies. OMG  that is all i can say. they have basically everything in them. my advice. find a whole foods, wander around the store for hours and reward yourself with a cookie

ps my dad has promised to help me with my life as long as i help myself first. today begins "operation help yourself." wish me luck.

eat pray love

i got the book last night. i was laughing by the second paragraph. im so happy i decided to watch oprah yesterday. julia roberts was on talking about her role in the movie adaptation of the book. and the movie looks like it will be awesome. i highly recommend you get the book.

ps i really want to get myself some japa malas. they are so beautiful.

a slight change of plans

i know, i know. i was gone a lot longer than expected. my 3 day get-a-way was great. but i came back to insanity. i kinda knew i would. my house was messy, my kids were crazier than normal but i was happy to be home safe and sound.

i got my tattoo. i left here with a plan of getting a cherry blossom tree up one side of my back. i came back with a not even close to being finished Buddha in a prayer position in the center of my back (covering a sad looking butterfly i no longer liked). my piece is going to be amazing!! the artist doing might be more excited about it then i am. check her out here i will post pics soooon.

ps my dad is here for a few days but i'll try to post anyway. happy friday.

take a deep breath

and relax. thats what i need to do. im very nervous. tomorrow im hopping on a jet plane and going to see my besties. im kinda freaking out cause i dont really like planes or what i should say is i dont like flying. im sure everything will be fine and ill be back here posting how awesome my trip was, but for now my nerves will get the best of me till i land tomorrow. so my sad little blog will be quiet for a few days. au revoir les amis.

ps tonight i went and got red highlights in my hair. im kinda lovin the way it looks

my new facination

i have a tendency for obsessing when i find something i like. my newest obsession? buddha, and all things asian. im actually contemplating becoming a buddhist. im not sure if i believe its a religion so much as a philosophy. i need to do more homework on the subject. in search of enlightenment. thats me.

ps im getting a tattoo on friday. im super excited.

a day for momma

its very cold and windy here this morning. not very spring-y. but its ok cause my hubby made me strawberry pancakes and mimosas for breakfast. and my children bought me cards and flowers. lobster tails might be on our dinner menu tonight (they are on sale yay!). all in all its a very nice mothers day. hope yours is happy too

ps dont forget to call your mom. mine called me this morning to tell me she'll be getting married for a 5th time next week. i have nothing to say about that.

anthropologie

just typing the word out does something to me. i love that store. i received their catalog in the mail today. their stuff sets my heart a flutter. if i am ever lucky enough to win the lotto (id have to actually play though) i would only shop there. have you seen their latte bowls? they are divine. their clothes is vintage and modern at the same time. and shoes. oh the beautiful shoes. need a handbag? they got ya covered. new bedding? they carry that too. if you have yet to visit anthropologie i suggest you find the time soon. its bliss.

ps tonight we are having friends over for pizza. hoping it will be nice enough to eat outside and let the kids enjoy spring. happy friday.

a little inspiration

a little over a year ago i started reading a blog after i saw the story of a woman on the today show. the story was about how her and her husband had survived a near-fatal plane crash. she was just another blogger (with a huge following) sharing her life. i read her entire blog (over two yrs of entries) in 3 days. i was moved and inspired by her. here is a video about her story id like to share. perhaps you will find some inspiration too



ps today i find myself longing for the smell of fresh flowers. there is just something about the way they look on my table. off to get me some.

cinco de mayo

guacamole, chips and salsa, tacos. its time for a fiesta. we will be celebrating with some mexican food and some good friends. oh and i can't forget the cerveza and sangria. cheers.

ps in a week from today i'll be hanging with my besties. maybe i can convince hubby to get me that new cam before i do.

everything happens for a reason

well, im starting to believe that more and more anyway. today i was at the right place at the right time. i dont want to jinx myself so i wont go into details about anything till i know its a sure thing. i hope to update you very soon on my exciting going ons. yay!! heres something yummy to look at...

ps hubby got his tattoo in memory of his father yesterday. it covers the inside of his arm from his wrist to his elbow.

glass half full

that's what my glass is and its definitely better than glass half empty. i have decided i will not come here and write about the negative things. i will find something positive to focus on everyday. this might be hard, but im sure it can be done.

ps my very busy week came to an end this morning when the last of my in laws headed back home. back to semi-normal

i would be better if

do you ever say you would be a better 'fill in the blank' if you had something better, or am i alone in this? i always tell hubby if i had a bigger better kitchen i'd be an amazing cook or if i had a better camera id take more pictures. i wonder if that's really true. i think it is. maybe? or it could be that i just want bigger and better things. i think hubby should get me the better cam so we can find out if my "better theory" is true. it will be the only way to find out for sure. it would be a sort of myth busters. and think of all the money we would save on a new kitchen if my theory is false. good point.

ps it seems like our move back to fl probably wont be happening this year. we will see what happens and re-evaluate the situation next summer.

sometimes family sucks

plan and simple. there is someone on my father-in-laws side of the family coughhisbrothercough that is being a jackass right now. we might have to change the plans for his wake because of the crap he is pulling. i don't understand why he would want to do this when we are supposed to be remembering and paying respect to my father-in-laws life. i cant imagine that my father-in-law would be at peace knowing his brother and sons are fighting. its just really sad.

ps my hubby went and made an appointment to get a tattoo in honor of his father. he is going to take some of my father-in-laws ashes and have them put in the ink, so his father is forever with him.

busy week

this week is gonna be hectic. we have family coming in on thursday. my father-in-laws wake is on friday. hubby is already saying how he's gonna get drunk. im not looking forward to this. he says once this week is over he will be less snippy with me and the kids. i hope so.

ps i keep listening to the same 3 songs over and over this morning. pink moon by nick drake is one of them *sigh*

saturday love

"we have a pretty nice little Saturday, we're going to go to Home Depot. Yeah, buy some wallpaper, maybe get some flooring, stuff like that. Maybe Bed, Bath, & Beyond, I don't know, I don't know if we'll have enough time." thats a quote from the movie old school if you didn't know. love that movie. but thats kinda the plans for today. home depot for some flowers, hubby is beautifying the outside of our house. we are also going to some friends this afternoon for a birthday party. happy saturday.

ps im going to get my feet did. happiness.

pink

its my favorite color. its also the color of my kitchen aid mixer *le sigh* im not sure how one can love an inanimate object but i totally do. the first thing i made with it was oatmeal chocolate chip cookies with chick peas hidden in the mix. they were ahhh-may-zing. best part my kids had no clue they were eating veggies.

ps i cut all my hair off yesterday. im still not sure how i feel about it.

snip snip

im going to get my hair cut today. part of me wants just a trim and the other part wants to go a lot shorter. the hubster likes women with long hair but i love my hair shorter.

my hair dresser doesnt take well to opinionated clients and i really wanna tell him that id rather he use scissors instead of a razor blade. my hair feels like a damn brillo when he uses the razor. but i dont wanna piss off the guy who has my hair in his hands.

ps i want a new camera. a really good one. one that makes objects in the background look all fuzzy and cool *le sigh*

Some changes and an update

i made a decision (when i couldnt sleep at 4 this morning). im going to get my family healthy. my father-in-law basically died from not taking care of himself after being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. my hubby has gained weight and so has my 15 yr old. i dont want the same fate for them. we are going to be eating better. red meat will be limited to once a week (im mean but i have a purpose). and fruits and veggies will replace junky snacks. sorry guys but mommas gotta do what mommas gotta do.

i was checking my email this morning and noticed there was one from the lawyer handling the short sale of our home in fl. it was an update saying "currently the status of your file is: waiting on written payoff from lender." we put our house on the market in September of 2007. i hope this means we will be able to finally close the chapter on that book.

ps my new blog name is in honor of my hubbys thoughts on therapy. i myself think therapy rocks. in my opinion everyone could use some. some more so than others.

Ugh!!!

its not a good bad. in fact its a pretty craptastic day. it started when i turned on my coffee maker and thought it was broke. heartfail. yesterday my father in law passed away and today my hubby is coming home. that should make me happy but i know that i will have to deal with the tsunami of emotions that he is going through.

he's not the happiest of people to begin with so im sure you can see where im going with this...

he missed his flight home. that and the fact that he wasn't calling me sent me into a hysterical crying fit. i had not cried since my fil passed and that just sent me over board. im a bit calmer now but wondering when he will be home? *sigh* ps i have an awesome headache now.

Im random...

I just came here to change the name and layout of my blog. Not cause I have something to say. Or anyone to say it to considering only one person follows me *waves* hi katrina!!!

A little therapy...

I've heard that writing is therapeutic. I think I need some therapy right about now, so I'm going to try to come post everyday. I'm OCD and ADD so I get really obsessed with things and then I get bored with said obsession. It's fun at first, but I usually go overboard and I end up losing interest. I'm trying to work on this. Right now I think I need to focus on the important things in life. My husband, children, and myself. I believe that everything else will work itself out.

We are moving back to FL soon and I think this will be a fresh start for everyone. I will no longer allow negativity into my life. I need positive people. Misery loves company, well, I don't need company. I will be strong and remember that everything happens for a reason. It's a new day and I am blessed.