i would be better if

do you ever say you would be a better 'fill in the blank' if you had something better, or am i alone in this? i always tell hubby if i had a bigger better kitchen i'd be an amazing cook or if i had a better camera id take more pictures. i wonder if that's really true. i think it is. maybe? or it could be that i just want bigger and better things. i think hubby should get me the better cam so we can find out if my "better theory" is true. it will be the only way to find out for sure. it would be a sort of myth busters. and think of all the money we would save on a new kitchen if my theory is false. good point.

ps it seems like our move back to fl probably wont be happening this year. we will see what happens and re-evaluate the situation next summer.

sometimes family sucks

plan and simple. there is someone on my father-in-laws side of the family coughhisbrothercough that is being a jackass right now. we might have to change the plans for his wake because of the crap he is pulling. i don't understand why he would want to do this when we are supposed to be remembering and paying respect to my father-in-laws life. i cant imagine that my father-in-law would be at peace knowing his brother and sons are fighting. its just really sad.

ps my hubby went and made an appointment to get a tattoo in honor of his father. he is going to take some of my father-in-laws ashes and have them put in the ink, so his father is forever with him.

busy week

this week is gonna be hectic. we have family coming in on thursday. my father-in-laws wake is on friday. hubby is already saying how he's gonna get drunk. im not looking forward to this. he says once this week is over he will be less snippy with me and the kids. i hope so.

ps i keep listening to the same 3 songs over and over this morning. pink moon by nick drake is one of them *sigh*

saturday love

"we have a pretty nice little Saturday, we're going to go to Home Depot. Yeah, buy some wallpaper, maybe get some flooring, stuff like that. Maybe Bed, Bath, & Beyond, I don't know, I don't know if we'll have enough time." thats a quote from the movie old school if you didn't know. love that movie. but thats kinda the plans for today. home depot for some flowers, hubby is beautifying the outside of our house. we are also going to some friends this afternoon for a birthday party. happy saturday.

ps im going to get my feet did. happiness.

pink

its my favorite color. its also the color of my kitchen aid mixer *le sigh* im not sure how one can love an inanimate object but i totally do. the first thing i made with it was oatmeal chocolate chip cookies with chick peas hidden in the mix. they were ahhh-may-zing. best part my kids had no clue they were eating veggies.

ps i cut all my hair off yesterday. im still not sure how i feel about it.

snip snip

im going to get my hair cut today. part of me wants just a trim and the other part wants to go a lot shorter. the hubster likes women with long hair but i love my hair shorter.

my hair dresser doesnt take well to opinionated clients and i really wanna tell him that id rather he use scissors instead of a razor blade. my hair feels like a damn brillo when he uses the razor. but i dont wanna piss off the guy who has my hair in his hands.

ps i want a new camera. a really good one. one that makes objects in the background look all fuzzy and cool *le sigh*

Some changes and an update

i made a decision (when i couldnt sleep at 4 this morning). im going to get my family healthy. my father-in-law basically died from not taking care of himself after being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. my hubby has gained weight and so has my 15 yr old. i dont want the same fate for them. we are going to be eating better. red meat will be limited to once a week (im mean but i have a purpose). and fruits and veggies will replace junky snacks. sorry guys but mommas gotta do what mommas gotta do.

i was checking my email this morning and noticed there was one from the lawyer handling the short sale of our home in fl. it was an update saying "currently the status of your file is: waiting on written payoff from lender." we put our house on the market in September of 2007. i hope this means we will be able to finally close the chapter on that book.

ps my new blog name is in honor of my hubbys thoughts on therapy. i myself think therapy rocks. in my opinion everyone could use some. some more so than others.

Ugh!!!

its not a good bad. in fact its a pretty craptastic day. it started when i turned on my coffee maker and thought it was broke. heartfail. yesterday my father in law passed away and today my hubby is coming home. that should make me happy but i know that i will have to deal with the tsunami of emotions that he is going through.

he's not the happiest of people to begin with so im sure you can see where im going with this...

he missed his flight home. that and the fact that he wasn't calling me sent me into a hysterical crying fit. i had not cried since my fil passed and that just sent me over board. im a bit calmer now but wondering when he will be home? *sigh* ps i have an awesome headache now.

Im random...

I just came here to change the name and layout of my blog. Not cause I have something to say. Or anyone to say it to considering only one person follows me *waves* hi katrina!!!